love, family

[Aicha]

How can I delete my posts? =)

[Hari]

It seems that your problems are very deep and a quick answer on this forum will not address them. If you systematically go through the materials in the lectures and meditations, there is a chance that something there will spark the love you yearn for. Perhaps there are others in the forum that wish to address you privately (every member can send private messages to other members) and I encourage them to do so.

In general, acceptance of your situation is the primary solution, followed by understanding and forgiveness. Accepting yourself and forgiving yourself are the most important things you can do. This is what is discussed in many lectures.

Good luck and love to you...